Be Positive! That's harder than you think

     The past two weeks have not been the greatest.  As some of you know; we were able to bring mom back home a couple of weeks ago from the Nursing Home. She was doing great until this weekend when we had to take her to the ER.  It turns out that she has a strong UTI because of her lack of drinking water.  But when the UTI comes; her short term memory goes; and we are back to a pre-dementia state.  So me and my sister have to take turns at night to sleep in a chair next to her bed to make sure she does not try to wake up and get up. In her weak state she cannot walk without assistance; so we are there to make sure she does not hurt herself.
    Besides that, I went to see a new Podiatrist because Dr. C. messed up my foot to get a strong infection.  Dr. C. stated that it was very deep and that it might get to  my foot; and that it will take several months before I can be cured.  I had enough!  I gave him a chance but that was the last straw!
   I ended up in San Antonio; and loved Dr. B.  The moment she saw my foot she knew what was wrong; and ordered tests to see how bad the infection was. It turns out that the infection has gotten to part of my bone; so I will be having a biopsy on Friday!  I am scared again; because I am just afraid of what can happen.  I am also scared because I will have to go to SA to have the biopsy by myself.  With mom's illness, I can't ask anyone to take me.  I am grateful that my sister will be able to pick me up after the surgery; but still scared.  But I will be positive! I will have faith that all will be well; because I do not have any other choice.  But I am scared.